“I love to move like a mouse inside this puzzle for the body, balancing the wish to be lost with the need to be found.” 

― Billy Collins, Questions About Angels

I attend — I seek to listen, to observe, and to honor Your Light.

I sense the unawake, though caught within is Her Hawthorne clement — the body, unveiling with Nature.

How to love you… I surrender, I wonder, I study !

I am loving you — uncontrolled and unconditioned. Yearning to be — close, yet I am intangible Now.

You continue to frequent my heart.

“From every human being there rises a light that reaches straight to heaven, and when two souls that are

destined to be together find each other, the streams of light flow together and a single brighter light goes

forth from that united being.”

― Baal Shem Tov

You may not desire — and I, I do… desire — an earnest sweet Prayer.

Tell me what you see in the light of the Sun — Speak to me, please again — and then Yes, again.

Let us become — rapture — together — forever.

In silence — a pilgrimage of the Self, a sought-after-Soul, a process of Divine Love.

I see you, Sacred — a mystery, with a history, a man with His own beautiful Story.

“To feel everything in every way, To live everything from all sides, To be the same thing in all ways possible at the same time, To realize in oneself all humanity at all moments In one scattered, extravagant, complete and aloof moment.”

— Fernando Pessoa 

I am on the island now — Martha’s Vineyard, my current home. A gift to surrender to the boundaries of oceanic magnificence, a community of alchemy whether conscious or unconscious. 

At recent, in my zealous pursuit of spiritual intelligence, whether mystical, metaphoric, philosophic, theoretical, or simply practical — I read, and read again… enchanted by the depth of the human soul. What a wonder we are offered each and every moment, to bathe in the ether’s musk and alter it with joy — identify the concept of God as infinite harmony, adventure inward and feel outward with renewed amazement… it is a treasure to feel the sun and the moon, our present earning of peace.

While I learn more traditional ritual — I am practicing a Zoroastrian principle, ‘Good Thoughts, Good Words, Good Deeds’. This is the original “religion” of my paternal family root, which I appreciate due to their acceptability. To think in a positive light, to speak with thoughtfulness, and to act with compassion — this is my practice each day, to will what is created in my perceived reality with conscious love. 

I do feel what is between matter and matter is ether — and as we live within musk right now, we are capable of alchemically shifting this rooted scent into a new fragrant frequency for future generations to come. I feel we have the will and choice to create the environmental energy — leading to Eden Now. 

“People are just as wonderful as sunsets if you let them be. When I look at a sunset, I don’t find myself saying, ‘Soften the orange a bit on the right hand corner.’ I don’t try to control a sunset. I watch with awe as it unfolds.”

— Carl Rogers 

This sense of “awe” — it is God, for I feel God in observation… with all the senses. 

“To hold our tongues when everyone is gossiping, to smile without hostility at people and institutions, to compensate for the shortage of love in the world with more love in small, private matters; to show greater patience, to forgo the cheap revenge attainable from mockery and criticism: all these things we can do.”

— Hermann Hesse 

To live with discernment, to alter ego, and to infinitely forgive — these are “things we can do.”, always turning ourselves toward the illuminating quality of Nature. 

“I have a childish hope to gather all I love together and sit down beside and smile.”

— Emily Dickinson

This same child must be within the Self when we spoil our space with unconscious behavior — whisper for the child’s ears, wonder for the child’s creativity, and worship for the child’s resilience within. 

“I worship you, I can’t do anything about it, even by suffering.”

— Marguerite Duras

For in our syncretic ether, we are not alone — always a community, where we enter a new Era with Grace. 

This sense of trust of the Self — it wonders, while the ‘other’ wither within their own dawning shadow.

I hear, I observe, I yearn with a desire to alleviate the feeling of separation. To cajole the ‘other’ into rising with illuminant passion, rather than contesting equal being — our simple texture of opposing minds, which weave and alter the dimmed mind. This is not the uneducated brain, it is not the oppressed neurology, nor is it the voiceless neighbor. I am speaking of the each of us, the individual whom travels in their delusion tails. This compels me to adjust odd paradigms — tumbling in sublime free-will.

Rainer Maria Rilke

“For one human being to love another human being; that is perhaps the most difficult task that has been entrusted to us, the ultimate task, the final test and proof, the work for which all other work is merely preparation. Loving does not at first mean merging, surrendering, and uniting with another person. It is a high inducement for the individual to ripen, to become something in himself, to become world in himself for the sake of another person; it is a great, demanding claim on him, something that chooses him and calls him to vast distance...

Once the realization is accepted that even between the closest of people infinite distances exist, a marvelous living side-by-side can grow up for them, if they succeed in loving the expanse between them, which gives them the possibility of seeing each other as a whole and before an immense sky.”

As the trust of my Self has strengthened, I find my willingness to accept change, impermanence, and previously perceived abandonment has gone about a revelation — I find a new depth of understanding, a tempering for the soul, and an ease for longing. I find myself in transient emotional states — yearning for the ‘other’ to be as truthful as I am. What I mean to say is, I am finding joy in being a witness, the “immense sky”. I trust myself and my path of truth — which in turn, gives all ‘other’ entities complete freedom within my own perception.

I agree and disagree with Rilke here — I only disagree with Rilke’s idea of “union” in the final sense of all unions. The one which leads us to God. This Union is not separate, it draws three essences together — you, I, and God. Perhaps this is a long way away from my Now — still, it remains in my prayers. I am close, yet still working.